Sunday, February 25, 2007

This is a poem to my daughter Nikki


by me, her mama. October 2005


This is a poem to my daughter Nikki

Who in many disturbing ways

Resembles a girl I used to know

Somewhere ages and stages ago.

For I too turned eighteen

And rebelled and struck out in rage

at a woman who wanted to shape me

and mold me into her clone.

Like some déjà vu,

I find that you, headstrong you,

Have become an obstinate, independent

extension of me.

Yet thankfully different from me.

While loving you, I live in fear

Of mistakes repeating, your young heart breaking.

The desire to mould you

into what might shield you

from the darkness crossed my mind.

But no, unlike the generation past

I shall never ask that you be me,

for I realize each child, just like a flower,

must turn toward the sunlight

on its own.

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